Missed, lost, not taken; all words that are used frequently to describe opportunities that we don’t take. Often as a Mum we have to make a choice to intentionally not take that opportunity and just hope that it comes again later down the track. Sometimes though, you just have to make a decision that’s right for you and your family at the time. At least that’s what I’m telling myself. That Mummy guilt that sits on your shoulder and judges your every thought. It looks at you with the orange eyes and just questions you.. “Really?” It says “you think you can do it all?” Well sometimes it’s probably right. Where there’s smoke there’s fire.. An opportunity I had been looking for before having my third beauty has arisen but I’ve chosen to leave it alone. Returning to work might be a big enough shock to the system without adding to it any further demands. My dear husband and Mum will be stepping up to the plate to help just so I can get to work- hopefully on time! The reality of it all is settling is fast, not to say I’m not looking forward to it, I am in some regards, not in others. The adult conversation and using my brain to think about more than school lunches and dirty nappies! But let’s go slowly and settle in to a routine and get life in balance before taking on another new challenge. It is a bit disappointing isn’t it, when you want something but you know it’s not in the best interest of your family to go for it? You feel guilty for even thinking about it. I’m ok with my decision now but I imagine there’s many Mums out there who aren’t ok with their decisions. And there’s probably many Mums who are super brave and take those chances when they arise. They are likely the leaders of this world, or large companies😉 Gold star to them for going hard and getting what they want. I’m not yet ready for that. I know that , and that awareness in itself is an achievement!
And when all else fails.. Dinosaur Spaghetti is a well balanced meal!